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Well, these have been quite the past few weeks.

So i went on Easter vacations to visit my family and used that whole week to rest. I was supposed to go back home the sunday of resurrection and get back to my usual schedule. We woke up that day to the news that my grandmother had passed away in her sleep. Her heart gave up and she didn’t suffer at all. In fact her body looked like she was just sleeping.

She was a rough woman, 91 years old, very opinionated and… i can say agressive. I honestly don’t have good memories from her since i was always chastized for anything i even tried to do and stuff i wasn’t even going to do at all. Over the years she began suffering from dementia which caused a lot of issues. As making enemies from year long friends over paranoia of being robbed, hiring new people that would steal from her and misshandle her. She would also refuse help from my mother and my aunt since she prefered to stay alone at her place.

It is weird because i know i should be sad, but me and my whole family felt more of a relief. She was not an evil person, but a very diffucult one. Makes me worry about pushing people away from you and dying alone.

Anyways, she died during vacations which turned all the legal paperwork for her funeral, incineration and inheritance a mess since nobody was working.

Things are fine now, we are still shocked though.

And then this wednesday i crashed my car, this is the first vehicular accident i have ever been involved in which was a big shock. Luckily none of the parties were harmed (minus a big pain on my neck due to whiplash), the insurance will take care of the damages on the other car and part of mine. Still i feel like i made a failure in my life because of this.

I haven’t been in the best state of mind to be honest, that also explains why it took me longer than usual to post the first update of the month.

Stay safe everyone. Don’t push your relative and friends away.


I’ve had some bumps on my mom’s car and since then I worry a little bit every time I take the wheel. It’s like I just know I’m going to have an accident and yet I don’t. I notice every time I do a mistake, don’t check my blind spot or things like that (not that often, but still happens) and yet I haven’t had an accident since many months. We all have close calls, mistakes that could have led to an accident but didn’t because the circumstances spared us, probably more than we’d like to admit. It’s only when there’s a crash that we truly realize that. So yeah, stay safe but don’t feel too bad.

I must say that this is a pretty sweet and epic page here. I must commend Fio on a job well done in telling Ron about Marianne’s prior relationships and giving him such high praise for…well…being himself. Although, I will say that it’s probably not the best idea in the freaking world to talk about Marianne in the same room. Seriously, she could wake up at any moment. Then again, it’s also not the best idea to talk to her new boyfriend without panties and him in the nude. Just saying. XD

Not to mention, that she seems really needy at the moment.
I guess, there’s something burningmelting in the room right now.
And she still manages to hold herself in place. That’s a strong force of will she has!
Somebody, give Fio a Green Lantern’s ring!

Somebody seems pretty fired up~ Good thing that she has such a great will power. :p
Boy, Fio’s a hottie too. x3

Yeah, based upon Fio’s question(s) on the last page, and her actions on this one she seems to be holding back on something, I suspect she might be feeling a bit “warm” in more ways than one. I must commend her for not doing anything (yet) that she’d regret later. Guess we will have to wait and see, won’t we?

I can relate to the feeling of relief at the passing of a relative. There does come a point where (especially if the relative was difficult + rude + dementia) where prolonging the inevitable just becomes an exercise in pain and futility for everyone. I’m glad things worked out but don’t feel weird or that its wrong to feel relief instead of sadness or grief. Just focus on the good memories you do have and try to find the positive in all of it.

I’m sorry to hear about your accident and loss. Believe me, you’re not a mess-up because of one accident. They happen. That’s why they’re called accident.

I think I understand your feelings about your grandmother. Many of my relatives take a while to die and when they finally do, it comes as a relief to everyone. Yes, we’re saddened and mourn the passing, but the release from the stress of taking care of them, of losing job opportunities and putting life on hold to help them has felt like an awakening. We miss them, but are also glad to live our lives again. Would we change it? No, but having control in life is important.

What I’m trying to say is to not beat yourself up over “not feeling the proper way.” In fact many things we think, or are told, should be a certain way usually aren’t like that at all.

Good luck and keep being awesome.

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